Ludwig van Beethoven, Bedřich Smetana & me; all had something in common; deafness.Smetana was totally deaf, Beethoven , almost totally deaf, and me? Over 80% loss and getting worse.
Smetana and I also have another thing in common; tinnitus.
He described his tinnitus as “a pounding and intense hissing in the head, day and night, without ceasing, as if I were standing underneath a huge waterfall”.
I wrote many months ago, on my experiencing the onset of this affliction, under the heading A Million Cicadas. For many months they came and went, but about three months ago, the cicadas came back to stay. Just Like Smetana’s waterfall.
My cicadas are now with me constantly; and my hearing is deteriorating at an ever increasing pace. I’m finding it difficult to hear the spoken word, even with my headphones on, when listening/watching television.
Without them, I cannot understand one word, that is uttered, just a faint blurring noise. Luckily I can still work out what is being said when I watch and ‘strain’ closely when I’m talking to people. Suppose I should have said ‘with’ not ‘to people, to be P.C. but I prefer the language I grew with!
Ludwig was lucky; he didn’t suffer from tinnitus!
If anybody s wondering why I’ve put pictures of those two composers it’s simply because I enjoy their work; especially Smetana’s Má vlast – Vltava, more often called ‘The Moldau’; and deafness struck us all! 😦
Whilst I’m having a moan, I might as well tell you what else is causing concern.
Some few months after I left the RPAH after being gutted, my GP, decided it was time to check the things on my face, skin cancers, which he was loath to do prior to the surgery. There was one much larger than the rest that he thought a biopsy was called for to test for malignancy.
After Percy’s gentle ministrations, Doc. Francis, my GP, with fiendish delight, cut out a slice of the growth, after assuring me that it would not hurt. I assure you, it hurt like hell! 👿
The result’s came back a few days/a week, later, and I was told that it was non-malignant, and that I could now have all of these things removed. For those not familiar with this process, they are burnt off using liquid hydrogen, it doesn’t hurt, justs stings a little for a few seconds. So off mine came!
The larger one, that was on my right cheek, just below, and to the right of my eye, was of course removed. And therein lies what may well be a problem!
About the same time as my cicadas came home to roost; do they roost? I noticed some very small eruptions, for want of a better word, just to the right of where the largest one had been. And they are spreading! Too, my right eye feels, at times, that it’s under attack from below, and waters quite freely; which is disconcerting as you can imagine.
The eruptions are quite tiny, and nothing I applied, would get rid of them so on Thursday or Friday I toddled off to the doc’s, again, Doc. Francis wasn’t in so I saw Doc Mai. Doc Mai is quite new to medicine, and she was stumped and seemed concerned.
Doc Francis, is very qualified, in matters of the skin, so I have an appointment to see him, later this week.
Well, I suppose I’m going to have more tests now, to see if I’m going to emulate Jim Hacker’s alter ego. XD
Be just my luck! 🙄